Masturbating is just great sometimes, even though it’s a habit I wish I could break
I don’t think anyone has posted on this blog in ages.
But I’m doing pretty well right now.
Getting my life in order and such.
well my mum talked to me for ages after I got out of the shower, I was a little calmer cause I had just finished crying my eyes out. But I’m feeling a little better now. My heart is still dangerously heavy and I feel sick but a little better…
oh my god, my mum and dad were yelling and I ran downstairs and my dad was about to hit her. i knew they were divorcing but my mum just told me why and it’s because my dad’s been cheating on her with her best friend for two years and she heard them on the phone and oh my god i burst out crying and my mum hugged me and told me not to worry about it but i came up and cut myself, which I hadn’t don’t since january last year and I can’t stop crying now i feel sick to my stomach
fuck having reliable friends and fuck you for forgetting about me as soon as you got a boyfriend
I find it so hard to make friends seriously, it all seems so easy, but it’s not! I don’t know what to say, how I should start a conversation, what time to chirp in with relevant comments, how I should behave, should I joke? Do I know them well enough? Should I laugh at everything they say? Nothing? Are they judging me? What do I say now, we’ve already talked about the weather. Oh God, they’re bored of me, they hate me. I never should have said anything, awkward silence. They’re leaving now. OK.
I got accepted to become a peer listener, I can’t wait- maybe then I’ll actually be helping people :-D
I wish my scars weren’t permanent
they remind me of the most stupid thing I ever did
in those lonely moments when I was 14
feeling as abandoned as I feel now is one of the worst things in the world
stop it. I’m not sick. I just didn’t get enough sleep. Throwing up is not on my top list of priorities today, so please try not to make me do that. I just want to finish this essay and get another 45 minutes of sleep.. is that too much to ask?