I was wanting to see others experiences, I took xanax for the first time last night, and I had one of the worst panic attacks of my life a few hours later, has this happened to anyone else?
i’m definitely having a panic attack right now it’s sort of making me want to die
also i’m so excited because my tumblr crush messaged me that she wants to meet :3
I always read through this blog when I want to remember how much it was not fun to be sick. It’s kind of amazing how different my life is now than it was when I was 16 and not 19, but even now, even as it’s been almost 4 years since I started battling with anorexia, it’s still tempting not to eat tomorrow because I ate a lot today. I still often feel like a child.
My friends once said “what’s the point of masturbating? If you feel the need to be sexual just be sexual with someone!” LIKE SORRY THAT I DON’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND GUYS.
Masturbating is just great sometimes, even though it’s a habit I wish I could break
I don’t think anyone has posted on this blog in ages.
But I’m doing pretty well right now.
Getting my life in order and such.
well my mum talked to me for ages after I got out of the shower, I was a little calmer cause I had just finished crying my eyes out. But I’m feeling a little better now. My heart is still dangerously heavy and I feel sick but a little better…
oh my god, my mum and dad were yelling and I ran downstairs and my dad was about to hit her. i knew they were divorcing but my mum just told me why and it’s because my dad’s been cheating on her with her best friend for two years and she heard them on the phone and oh my god i burst out crying and my mum hugged me and told me not to worry about it but i came up and cut myself, which I hadn’t don’t since january last year and I can’t stop crying now i feel sick to my stomach
fuck having reliable friends and fuck you for forgetting about me as soon as you got a boyfriend
I find it so hard to make friends seriously, it all seems so easy, but it’s not! I don’t know what to say, how I should start a conversation, what time to chirp in with relevant comments, how I should behave, should I joke? Do I know them well enough? Should I laugh at everything they say? Nothing? Are they judging me? What do I say now, we’ve already talked about the weather. Oh God, they’re bored of me, they hate me. I never should have said anything, awkward silence. They’re leaving now. OK.